Today September 14, 2010 is so the best day ever!!!!,, i get to be with BubblyBear we really had fun...i love it when he looks at me as if i'm gonna melt,,i love it when our skin comes close together - in short - i really love him,,until the girl linked to him came and grabbed him away from me..... they talked, BubblyBear seems to be having so much fun with that girl than me, i dont know why i feel so betrayed when in fact he was never mine and i was never his',,i feel so jealous when i know that, that girl makes him more happy than me,,i hate it when he touches her shoulders as if they were together leaving me behind in a corner full of sorrow and anger,,but i cannot do anything but just accept the fact that he will never like me......i hate this..i feel like a loser AGAIN and i hate being a loser all the time! it's so hard to accept that i can't be the best in my own special way, 'cause somebody else has already stolen the spotlight without me even knowing....it pains me so much seeing that i can't go beyond others ability,,it really hurts...so much </3 its hard to accept that i cannot be the best because i know that somebody else will be way much better than me...bubblybear..bubblybear...bubblybear....i curse that codename..i still love him , even though he has hurted me too much than expected,,,but i also thank him...he has thought me a very important lesson :D....i just feel like kissing him simply saying 'i love you' hoping that he feels the same then kisses you back saying 'i love you,too' [lets make "AYUZAWA" as "REINA"]
brokenhearted....
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