BubblyBear

At first i thought love was just a piece of cake,,that i can just eat whenever i want to and simply swallow wherever i want to...but, i was wrong and it pains myself to know that i am already falling for him,,i dont know if this is what they call love,,i never fell in love..just then now..bubblybear hi very cute codename...i chose that because he is so cute!!!

this few days he has left me brokenhearted i know that he will never like me but now i am still hoping that maybe..just maybe...he might fell the same way about me,, he is linked with two girls by the way and they're both my friends it pains me so much seeing them so sweet together leaving me alone in a corner...
but still...i still love him, i still like him, i still adore him, even if it pains me so much doing so.....he doesn't notice me whenever i'm around,,not even a single glance...i wish i could tell him what i feel but i can't,,,,maybe i'll just kill myself doing that.....knoing that he likes somebody else....anyway...who won't be..she is almost perfect,,everything i want to be,,so gorgeous, very sexy, nice and incredibly intelligent,,,its not that i'm not, yes i am also like that but she is way better than me..almost all the boys in school likes her,,,this is the firdt time i felt this since i am from an all-girls-school but i realized having boys around is just so hard for me to take,,,sometimes i just feel like going back to my old school but that would just make me a loser ANd a quitter....i always tell myself that i'm a fighter but this time seeing them together makes me soooo weak,, WEAK enough to retreat,,,i am weak...whenever i look at the mirror i just see a loser...i am only 13 but i am already thinking this way..i cant help it,,, i really like him.. but this time i'm surrendering its not that i'm a quitter and is giving up that easy,,,i just realized that this will do me no good,,,and will just ruin what is left to me...i am a smart girl but was blinded easily with love,,,,i know that love will search for me...not me...i am only 13 ..i'm sure it will find me on time =) xenxa na EMO tlga aq,, thats why i love drawing and painting because they are my first love,,i know they will never hurt me....the way my BubblyBear did :(