My BubblyBear: Part 4!!! (sidestory lng po)

I like you so much, the way you look at me, the way you touch me, the way we talk about our jokes, I love you so much, BUT...when I see you look at her, touch her, laugh with her, talk about jokes together, don't you know that you're tearing my heart into pieces?? don't you know that you're slowly breaking me?? but what can I do?? you were never mine, I was never yours, I'm JUST a friend to you, but you're more than that to me. Why am I like this to you? At first you were just a friend but what happened? it turned out to be love...There's this girl he's used to be with, yeah she's pretty, yeah she's nice, yeah she's way smarter than me, I accept that but what I cannot accept is that he likes her, ~anyway, who won't be? She's almost perfect, everybody likes her, including my man, including the only boy who had captured my heart, I have no right to be in front of her, I'm compared as a dust whenever I'm beside her, I am nothing.....

After long sightings of him, long waitings *sigh* I have gone tired - very very tired, i'm just waiting for nothing, I know that he doesn't love me but I am still hoping that maybe, just maybe, he would notice me....

But after all of that I have realized that it is no use, he's just ruining my life, my family-relationship, my mind especially my grades, what I'm doing is useless, he just makes me cry every night..just seeing him with another girl crashes me into pieces - I have grown very tired, but I know he will never like me nor love me...

@Joriza&Ate joy: *ehem* F.Y.I. sala po ang "halucinations" nindo kung csay c bubblybear,, I swear bako xa,,cross my hearts, hope to die...hahaha...xD pero seriously bako xa.  

(yang piture sa taas..favorite page ko iyan sa MAID SAMA) 

My BubblyBear: Part 3!!

I was really happy these past days, I got to hang out with Bubblybear in facebook, we had so much fun I was so glad to chat with him and look at his smileys,, it's very relaxing being with him, I can't take my smile off my face its like sticked, I kept dreaming about him, it's like heaven,,........ but the heaven I felt vanished when the girl linked to him again suddenly showed up and I was forgotten again then another girl said that the girl linked to him was bubblybear's secret crush, she actually said that in front of my face, as usual I walked out removing his' hands from mine after seeing him SMILE, its very hard to accept, I think I'm badly hurt, a large sword torn my heart apart, the smile also vanished and was replaced with sorrow, my hair suddenly fell down to my eyes~ a hint that I am sad, I just feel like sleeping hoping that when I wake up I don't love him anymore but that didn't actually worked, I hate myself for loving him so much! now I am hurt I can't even breathe, ~anyway..nagsearch pa talaga ako kang mga zodiac signs para mahiling kung match man kami pero ..his zodiac sign was one of my "not destiny list" ouch..then I looked at the zodiac sign of the girl linked to him and bubblybear's zodiac sign was listed in "perfect match" ahhhhhH!!!!! i hate this!! I'm the loser AGAIN, it just made me feel that we are not really...meant for each other....*sigh* I give up.. the chinese book told me that ...i guess he's ..not really my destiny..I feel like crying but it won't do anything anyway,, I'll just waste my tears for nothing. *sigh* i don't know kung may part 4 pa ni,,,

mkulugon na kaya. (cguro may part 4 pa,,ABANGAN niyo nlng)

~anyway....after reading this,, obligado po kamong mag-like sa FB haha:D

habo kong mgpadaog kay POTOTEE!!

My BubblyBear part 2

Today September 14, 2010 is so the best day ever!!!!,, i get to be with BubblyBear we really had fun...i love it when he looks at me as if i'm gonna melt,,i love it when our skin comes close together - in short - i really love him,,until the girl linked to him came and grabbed him away from me..... they talked, BubblyBear seems to be having so much fun with that girl than me, i dont know why i feel so betrayed when in fact he was never mine and i was never his',,i feel so jealous when i know that, that girl makes him more happy than me,,i hate it when he touches  her shoulders as if they were together leaving me behind in a corner full of sorrow and anger,,but i cannot do anything but just accept the fact that he will never like me......i hate this..i feel like a loser AGAIN and i hate being a loser all the time! it's so hard to accept that i can't be the best in my own special way, 'cause somebody else has already stolen the spotlight without me even knowing....it pains me so much seeing that i can't go beyond others ability,,it really hurts...so much </3 its hard to accept that i cannot be the best because i know that somebody else will be way much better than me...bubblybear..bubblybear...bubblybear....i curse that codename..i still love him , even though he has hurted me too much than expected,,,but i also thank him...he has thought me a very important lesson :D....i just feel like kissing him simply saying 'i love you' hoping that he feels the same then kisses you back saying 'i love you,too' [lets make "AYUZAWA" as "REINA"]

BubblyBear

At first i thought love was just a piece of cake,,that i can just eat whenever i want to and simply swallow wherever i want to...but, i was wrong and it pains myself to know that i am already falling for him,,i dont know if this is what they call love,,i never fell in love..just then now..bubblybear hi very cute codename...i chose that because he is so cute!!!

this few days he has left me brokenhearted i know that he will never like me but now i am still hoping that maybe..just maybe...he might fell the same way about me,, he is linked with two girls by the way and they're both my friends it pains me so much seeing them so sweet together leaving me alone in a corner...
but still...i still love him, i still like him, i still adore him, even if it pains me so much doing so.....he doesn't notice me whenever i'm around,,not even a single glance...i wish i could tell him what i feel but i can't,,,,maybe i'll just kill myself doing that.....knoing that he likes somebody else....anyway...who won't be..she is almost perfect,,everything i want to be,,so gorgeous, very sexy, nice and incredibly intelligent,,,its not that i'm not, yes i am also like that but she is way better than me..almost all the boys in school likes her,,,this is the firdt time i felt this since i am from an all-girls-school but i realized having boys around is just so hard for me to take,,,sometimes i just feel like going back to my old school but that would just make me a loser ANd a quitter....i always tell myself that i'm a fighter but this time seeing them together makes me soooo weak,, WEAK enough to retreat,,,i am weak...whenever i look at the mirror i just see a loser...i am only 13 but i am already thinking this way..i cant help it,,, i really like him.. but this time i'm surrendering its not that i'm a quitter and is giving up that easy,,,i just realized that this will do me no good,,,and will just ruin what is left to me...i am a smart girl but was blinded easily with love,,,,i know that love will search for me...not me...i am only 13 ..i'm sure it will find me on time =) xenxa na EMO tlga aq,, thats why i love drawing and painting because they are my first love,,i know they will never hurt me....the way my BubblyBear did :(